What Do I Know Of Holy?

I opened my eyes and I realized exactly where I was. Contrary to what I wished, I was right on the edge, teetering over, peaking into the dark abyss of selfishness and sorrow. I knew that the way I was heading, if I took one more step it could be fatal. I had been doing so well. Why is it that all of the sudden I opened my eyes and was about ready to enter a free fall into somewhere I didn't want to be? (1 Corinthians 10:12) Some would argue that I was catching it early, and that was good. But it was discouraging enough for me to know that I had gotten there at all. Why can't we be perfect?

I started to get upset, I wanted to cry out and I did but still my heart's habit of being human caused my prayers to only be half hearted. Sure I wanted to be saved from where I was, but I wanted to take the path that had led me to where I was. (Jeremiah 17:9)

Then here came the wind of guilt. How come that wind is so strong and unpredictable? Nevertheless it was there pushing against me, sliding me ever closer to the edge that I was already on. The tears started to brim; but then I closed my eyes and tensed up. Was this really going to happen..? Am I really going to let it all blow away?

. . .

Suddenly it was all so clear. The wind seemed to pause and I heard a beautiful sound, which led to a glorious thought. My Protector is right there with me. He'd never left. Which maybe I had known all along.. But there was one thing I'd forgotten. He loved me. He loves me.

The wind went away, and I was slowly pulled away from the edge. His love changed everything. It stopped my decline in its tracks. I may have been quickly drawn to the edge, but just as quick I was reminded that the power of my Protector's love is greater than any mistake that seems to be staring me down. I relaxed when I was reminded He was there, then He got me back on the right track. And His love made it all okay.

Have you encountered this love?

The love that is stronger than anything you're dealing with?

He loves us.

Happy Birthday America

When i think of my country and the things that we've known

I'm humbled and blessed by my beautiful home.

But where did it come from, how did it start?

It started from with tears, and it broke many hearts.

We all came from different places but fled from the same

the same lies and the ties that drove us insane.

Our forefathers knew, straight from the start

without Almighty God, this country would halt.

So they put Him first and let Him decide

how we would live, and what laws should abide.

We faced many struggles and more sacrifices

as our men stood and fell from the enemies devices.

In the end we lost many battles, but we won the war

and this gave the freedom all hungered for.

And I know the reason we won, it's right at the core

the people back then knew what they fought for.

They fought for what's right, honest, and true

they stood up and screamed till England turned blue.

I wish I had been there when things were so clear

we saw evil as evil and didn't want it here.

So take time to remember, oh, please don't forget

that this Country was once pure and legit.

We didn't like evil, we strove for what's right

now with prayer as our weapon, let's continue to fight.

God Bless America.

Can You Say, "Amazing Love"?

Life is a whirlwind for sure. And one thing that I've come to accept is the beauty of it. Especially when I have someone as incredible as Jesus Christ on my side.
Recently I've had a lot of good times, and a lot of "realizations". I'm trying more so lately to give God my best. To really try and encounter Him, to grow and know Him the way He desires me to. God showed me that, contrary to what I've always thought, my purpose is to know God. To really know Him. I always thought that each of us had a sole purpose, that was uniquely ours. A purpose to do something. To change the world in some way. To be able to be remembered. But guess what! We do all have a purpose, yes. But that purpose is to know God. That's all He requires of us. That's all He desires from us.
He is such a great, indescribable God, that by knowing Him we can't help but improve our person. And when we do that which we were created to do; know God.

Seek Him, talk to Him, read His love letter to us, sit quietly in His presence.

When we get to that point, the other things will come about through Him. Then it truly is all for His glory. And we can honestly take no part of the glory. The only glory we can accept is the glory of knowing the One true, Holy, Incredible God.

Am I making sense?
We can do nothing; to do is not our purpose. To put it another way, it's not our job. Our job is to know God. To really know Him. Isn't that incredibly relieving..and yet also humbling, and almost unbelievable.

One other thought that recently slapped me in the face in an incredible fashion: Yahweh loves us. He loves me. He loves me more than I can ever even imagine imagining. His grace and His love goes so beyond what I've ever even dreamed of. No matter what He loves me. No matter where I am, no matter what I've done. No matter what you've done. No matter where you are. Can you get that through your head? I know that sometimes I can better than other times. But it's such a huge deal.

The Star Breather Loves us. and He wants us to know Him.

Original.

My God's enough
to heal the broken.
Though life is tough
He'll see you through.
Don't close your eyes
He's holding you.
you're in paradise.

When the words don't come, it's okay to be quiet. Just listen, don't turn and run. He is here with you

My God's enough
to heal the broken.
Though life is tough
He'll see you through.
Don't close your eyes
He's holding you.
you're in paradise.

When life is hard. His hands are soft. Just run to him, into His arms. He knows your problems. And He'll make a way. He'll be there for you.

My God's enough
to heal the broken.
Though life is tough
He'll see you through.
Don't close your eyes
He's hold you.
you're in paradise.

The Sound of Your Name.

all credit to Air1 and Above the Golden State ;)

I Will Fear No Evil, For You Are With Me.

And even though I feel so loney
like I have never been before
You never said it would be easy
but You said You'd lead me through the storm
He Will Carry Me - Mark Shults

What an awesome phrase. Life is not easy. And if you're living you know that. ;) Sometimes I can find myself (and I'm sure you all can relate) so burdened and discouraged about life's uneasyness. Not only do we lose people, but we get hurt, we fall down, we fail, and sometimes it rains. So what's the point? Where's the silver-lining?

Jesus.

I know that may sound so..heard before. But it rings true each and every time. God tells us countless time's in His word to not be afraid. Not only that, but He promises to never ever leave us.(Check out Joshua 1, Exodus 14:13, Hebrews 13:5) What difference does that make? Ohh, I'm so glad you asked.
God, Jesus, is the star breather. He is the creator of the universe. He formed every single little teeny cell inside of your elaborate body. He is the Alpha and Omega (beginning and ending); and He's the king of kings. I could go on and on about all the things God is (basically He's indescribeable) but one of the most awesome things He did was to die for us. He died on a cross for everyone of our sins. Then, He rose again and conqurered the grave! He actually defeated death. Once you accept Him, the star breathing savior, He makes us one of His own. He lives in us.
So are we making sense yet? I know, it may seem like a lot to take in..Jesus is definitely that amazing. But I'm just saying that because we are God's children, He's on our side. Forever and always. And He tells us time and time again to not be afraid, and to not be discouraged because He's got our back. The star breathing savior has our backs. And I personally am trying everyday to remind myself of that and to hold fast to Him no matter what this crazy life decides to throw at me. :)

The same power that conquered the grave lives in me, lives in me. Your love that rescued the earth lives in me, lives in me.

lots of love everybody :)

Not a Blogger

So I've finally figured out I'm not really a blogger. (I'm sure many of you could have shared that obvious fact with myself a long time ago) It's actually kinda funny; sometimes I spend hours trying to think of how to say what I'm feeling. How to write it, how to share it with someone else in a real, honest, tangible way. (to be honest, I do have what I like to call *blurps* when everything just seems to flow in a goregous, shareable way; but for those I give credit to God ;]) And then I can turn on the radio or itunes and hear a song that says it all: right there, bam! Then I'm in awe. And I post the lyrics, play the song endlessly, and tell everyone how amazing it was. lol. (think I'm a music freak?)
I long to aid in the fueling of people's fire. I long to encourage and strengthen those who are fallen. I long to share the unspeakable love of Jesus in a way that someone can truly understand how unspeakable it really is. Yet my words always seem to come when I don't intend them.
But maybe that's a gift, maybe that's the way it's supposed to be.