Back Up The Bus..

Alright, bear with me right now.. I'm having flashbacks to late summer 2007. I'm emailing a dear friend, listening to TFK, and just chilling. I love how certain music, especially certain songs, can totally transport you to another time. It's so crazy how the mind works. And there's also something awesome about how these songs bring me back, and then suddenly I'm overcome by how far God's brought me. Sometimes, still, I so easily get down on myself. And I feel like I'm such a mess.

I am such a mess! -there I go.

But you know what I'm learning this week (for probably the millionth time.)? I'm never going to get it on my own. I'm never going to be good enough. And that's the point! If I were ever able to be good enough, I wouldn't need Jesus. I've been reading a lot in Ephesians, and I was reading Galatians tonight too. It's so incredible. Because Jesus loved me so much He died for me while I was a mess.. fully knowing I'd always be a mess! And who am I to think that after being given a free gift of Grace that allows me to live, who am I to think that I'll be able to grow or progress in that grace by my own strength? If it were about my own strength, I would have never received the grace! That's such a hard thing to grasp. But it's so freeing! It's so miraculous.

Being confident of this that He [Jesus] who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. - Philippians 1:6

Can You Say, "Amazing Love"?

Life is a whirlwind for sure. And one thing that I've come to accept is the beauty of it. Especially when I have someone as incredible as Jesus Christ on my side.
Recently I've had a lot of good times, and a lot of "realizations". I'm trying more so lately to give God my best. To really try and encounter Him, to grow and know Him the way He desires me to. God showed me that, contrary to what I've always thought, my purpose is to know God. To really know Him. I always thought that each of us had a sole purpose, that was uniquely ours. A purpose to do something. To change the world in some way. To be able to be remembered. But guess what! We do all have a purpose, yes. But that purpose is to know God. That's all He requires of us. That's all He desires from us.
He is such a great, indescribable God, that by knowing Him we can't help but improve our person. And when we do that which we were created to do; know God.

Seek Him, talk to Him, read His love letter to us, sit quietly in His presence.

When we get to that point, the other things will come about through Him. Then it truly is all for His glory. And we can honestly take no part of the glory. The only glory we can accept is the glory of knowing the One true, Holy, Incredible God.

Am I making sense?
We can do nothing; to do is not our purpose. To put it another way, it's not our job. Our job is to know God. To really know Him. Isn't that incredibly relieving..and yet also humbling, and almost unbelievable.

One other thought that recently slapped me in the face in an incredible fashion: Yahweh loves us. He loves me. He loves me more than I can ever even imagine imagining. His grace and His love goes so beyond what I've ever even dreamed of. No matter what He loves me. No matter where I am, no matter what I've done. No matter what you've done. No matter where you are. Can you get that through your head? I know that sometimes I can better than other times. But it's such a huge deal.

The Star Breather Loves us. and He wants us to know Him.