Today I realized how long it's been since I've blogged. ;) Life gets crazy, and Facebook steals my time. So I apologize to those three people in the world who ever glance at my blog..
Today is also a good day for me to stumble into my blog, because I actually have something to say that may be worth reading. At church today my Pastor talked about Jesus second coming. He talked about how Jesus coming back is: definite, it's been delayed, and immanent. And the whole message had a major effect on me.
I've always been taught about Jesus coming back. And I've always heard people say things like "He's coming soon! Be ready!" But today I was actually persuaded that Jesus will be coming back, very soon. (If you're curious for more from the message, let me know and we'll talk.)
This realization didn't produce the feeling in me I would have liked it to. I'm scared. And I'm sort of upset about it.
As my Pastor talked about how soon Jesus may come back he said things like "Kids, some of you may not even graduate College. Some of you won't get married or have children."
"Wait God," I thought. "What's the deal? You know I want those things more than anything--"
Oh. Yikes.
Then I thought, "So what does this mean? All these passions I have, and the things I want to do are nothing? I just get jipped out of doing all that I can for you?"
I'm a pretty selfish person, aren't I?
And then I started thinking about how I'm kind of doing nothing for Jesus' kingdom. I need to start living. Cause I'm not living right now. I'm planning. I need to really get out there and let Jesus use me now. Because I may miss my chance. And that may upset me, but who am I to question the Most High? Who am I to let my fears get in the way of Him doing great things through me: Right now?
A few weeks ago I had an amazing God encounter, just praying to Him by myself. And one thing that He told me was: "Don't Be Afraid." At the time I thought He was talking about something else. But I see now that those words were meant for right now.
I need to surrender.
I need to not be afraid.
& I need to make sure that Jesus is my first love. Because, after today I can see that I've let Him slip down my list of priorities.
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Great post, Hannah :) It reminded me about Matthew 6:25-34 where Jesus tells us not to worry about anything. He tells us to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and He will give us all we need.
ReplyDeleteSure, we have desires. But in order to see which ones are from Him and which ones are from us, we need to give them all to Him.
Love you! :D :D